Stuff on my mind

Well here it is, Sunday evening and another weekend over.  I spent a lot of time this weekend pondering about my life.  I work in a job I really like, have a wonderful family, incredible friends and all my needs are met.  So, why do I feel unfulfilled?  I have a creative block and it is really making me a little crazy! 
I have, at times in my life, been wildly creative.  From poetry to painting I was so creative.  I painted and wall papered my kitchen and put in a new floor while my husband was at sea.  I painting a neat scene on a bathroom wall.  I made fabric wreaths, baskets, wall art.  I could cook and bake and I made fabulous soups.
I don't know what happened?!?!?  Last weekend I got together with my friend to do crafts.  I had in mind to make paper birds with a button holding on the wing.  I see so much on Pinterest that I want to try.  Well, I had such a hard time.  I couldn't even make a bird.  I got frustrated and just quit. 
I feel like I'm in the perfect time in my life to be creative, but for some reason, it is just not there.  Things I used to do, I can't even remember how I did them. 
I feel bored and while I have a lot of ideas, I can't seem to bring them into reality.  I'm not sure what is going on.  I don't feel depressed or stressed or anything like that.  I just can't put my finger on it. 

While all the crafty things I like to do aren't coming to the surface, I find I am able to write like never before.  I share previously about wanting to journal and meditate.  I am doing better journaling, I am finding I have a lot to put on paper and it seems to help to sort out my feelings and focus on what exactly I want.  I have plans for my future.  I know exactly how I want to live, for the first time in my life.  But do I really need to trade one for the other?  Must everything I love to do go by the wayside? 
I guess time will tell.  I will keep writing and meditating on these things.  Maybe, at some point, the answers will be clear.  I would appreciate any thoughts or ideas on this subject.  I hope it is ok to use this forum for my struggles.  It somehow feels right to me to put it out there, maybe once I let it out and let it go, it will change!
Have a great week!